GO GREEN DAY
► Saturday, January 22, 2011 | 9:26 PM
Hello world :D
I've decided to change my blog skin again because i want something less bluish.
so i took the SKIN OF THE DAY! on 9 Oct. Awesome (:
anyway, i had so much fun today even though i miss my family loads.
it's just so different without them
I even miss my sis's presence :O
nah, it shouldn't be surprising. hahas, let's scrape that colon oh
anyway as i was saying, Go Green Day was fun.
we met lots of people, we knocked on lots of door and i actually talked to some of my classmates more than usual *GASPS* hahahas, I always didn't get to interact with them since we always have nothing to say.
omigosh! AND WE HAD MASS DANCE! in the VOID DECK.
it wasn't as embarrassing when we did together. we as in the OGLs + BL + MAU + QS, Dee and M.e wasn't around to join the fun tho ): how sad.
then we played monopoly deal. hahahas, this is like so typical of our class, to have cards whereever they go. whoo. hahahas.
yupyup. so i'm kinda glad that i've gone for go green day.
yay go green!
ohnoes. now that orientation is coming, i should really brush up on my self-discipline.
i don't want to struggle to catch up after missing a week of school
it's that last lap before things start to quieten down. hahas
Wheee! and i should go sleep
NIGHTS!
Me and you
► Tuesday, January 18, 2011 | 11:16 PM
i believed in everlasting love
but as i grow up, i realised, those are just illusions.
the world is never fair.
even the world itself has different densities at different parts.
they never let you stay happy 24/7. how nice.
well, then comes the status problem.
rich and poor, weak and strong, the failures and the winners. even though they require each other to exist, they can't exist together. Get what i mean? they can't be one. It's always two, two different things altogether.
Blahblahblah
► Sunday, January 16, 2011 | 4:35 PM
Okay, i'm currently using my cousin's computer but it's annoying the hell out of me.
super laggy and no, my patience ain't that good
ohwell
let's reflect on this week
it's my first week back to school after all and nope, it's not good
i'm tired, stressed and pissed
with myself.
no worries, i'm not angry with anyone, at least not yet since there's nothing much for me to be agitated about for now
i wanna scream. why can't i get myself to sit there for two hours, okay, one hour and concentrate on my homework whole heartedly. yes like 100% my attention span is so bloody short that all my stuffs are choked up in a corner. AHHH. wtflower.
there are tests coming up and if i can't even handle now, how am i gonna survive orientation period. omigosh. i'm such a loser. lousylanxin. yay, alliteration.
okay academics aside
so this week wasn't good. after thinking about it i realised, the problem lies with moi
you see, i should do something about my poor attitude. it's really shameful i must say
i'm 18 this yr(although i'm officially that old in oct) so i should behave like an 18 yrs old girl
like you know, all grown up, mature and stuffs. not like some xiao meimei who gets on th nerves of some people
i know, i should stop being so AA and so irritating and so urgh at times
i bet some people hate me already.
lalala, who cares
okay, i do care. Alot.
and i'm a jdy now. it's my second year somemore, so i should behave like some da jiejie, instead of this lunatic whose attitude can be quite shitty at times. i beg for your forgiveness if i've not been up to your expectations.
but but but, being serious is so boring and my life is boring enough. wheee, screw logic.
oh and my mum says i should smile from the bottom of my heart, like you know, smile like i mean it. not like, pi xiao rou bu xiao.
tmr is the start of week 2.
A levels is in nov 20sth.
so i have around 10months and a week left?
Gambatte lan, you can do it. whoo
peace out.
p/s: i'm sorry. i think i'm turning nuts. LOL
Life's unfair
► Monday, January 3, 2011 | 10:36 PM
sometimes, i really really detest my parents
like URGH
ya, i'm grateful for everything you give me or do for me
but you always choose the wrong time to ask the wrong things
you bombarded me with questions when i'm like having tuition
you expect me to speak nicely to you when you don't even wanna listen?
sorry for not knowing much
sorry for being dumb
sorry for being a pain in the ass
wts la, like i was the one who wanted to go into jc
didn't i chose poly then?
now you expect me to know everything?!
so what if i'm a jc student?
so what if i happen to be good at maths in sec
so what if i know how to make some music videos?
i'm not god la!
and what was that man
accusing me of using his visa without knowing
if you don't trust me that much
go ask someone to help instead
URGH
Efff my life
i feel so pissed my head hurts. @#$%@$%
and to think i was trying to be a better girl
A brand new day
► 10:30 AM
i should stop trying to get your approval.
it's wayyy too tiring for me.
this is shit. i'm still trying to do econs D:
thr's gonna be camp,camp,flyersgiving and camp.
my life is so happening that i'm trying to grab on to some time
i need motivation and perseverence to carry on.
maybe some boost too. hahas!
came across this picture and realised that i can actually relate to it
this is B-A-D. hah. yup, i'm officially nuts.
nuts out. Peace!
Rantrantrant
► Sunday, January 2, 2011 | 8:24 PM
today wasn't as awesome as i thought it would have been.
well, i wonder what's wrong with me too.
it can't be just the lack of sleep.
this is bad, my self-control is getting worse each day.
then it hit me, i realised all this shit(sorry) is due to it be 2011
well, it's not the year that matters.
i don't give a damn(sorry again) about what yr it is but hey, it's my A level year
i'm friggin stressed already D:
there are homeworks undone, new topics unread, tests unrevised.
AHHH. !@#$%^&*
JC2 is going to be hell
the world better not end soon, i don't wanna waste 2 years of my life stressing up for nothing
well, let's see, seeing that this blog might die anytime soon as the time goes by due to the piling of homework and the comings of tests and exams. okay i don't even want to think about it.
let's rant
i hate people who are so damn bloody fake.
but, i'm like that sometimes too so i hate myself as well.
ihateyoulanxin. hahas wth
they get on my nerves and even more today since i was tired and stressed.
but urgh, i should stop making myself so miserable
i really should go on a diet. hoho
okay random
laomu ah, you must help me kay? let dizi(or is it dizhi) find an awesome and smart way to study and not be distracted by anything or anyone else. i can't afford to cry since i can't rmb when i last did that :O my head just hurts when i feel like crying. wheee.. i'm nuts. JC makes me nuts
but! i'm gonna defeat it! at the end of the year! so just watch out hurr.
stress is not going to push me down. at least not at the start of the year. lanxin, ni ke yi de! whoo!
A levels, you're going downnn with many As :D hopefully all, but i shan't put in too much hope.
i realised i didn't have any new year resolution/s.
okay here it is.
i shall be a better girl this yr
i can't put feminine since my family needs a "guy" around to move the stuffs
i can't put mature since i have to be young at heart or i will die of overseriousness or sth like that
i shall bitch gossip less too
oh and i shall make full use of each day or at least try to
okay, i should be going off to finish up my econs project. that's like a stepping stone to success
THANKS DADDY for keeping me company today although i kept running away.
you're awesome, serious. don't deny kays? (:
take care of yourself. you can't fall sick.
and cheer up! You look WAYYYY better with a smile :D
if you bad mood, it will make my mood worse too and thr's not point trying to be the sun lor
especially if you use a mirror and reflect it away ):
so be happy yea? i don't mind listening to you nag luh, pleaseee, how long have i known you?
and it isn't fair if i keep ranting and going on while i dunno what's going on in your mind mah :/
yupyup. so cheer up yea? :D
oh, fahrenheit has a new mv YAY.
random.
i shall be going then. buhbye!
2011
► 8:07 AM
Do you believe in miracles?
Do you believe in destiny?
Do you believe in fate?
Do you..
Believe in love?
Once upon there was this girl,
She shut herself away from reality and tried to live a happy life
She didn't dare to fall in love anymore
Or if she did, it would be someone unreachable
Yet there was always this tingly feeling in her
Whenever she saw him..
Hahas. What a way to start the year with some randomness.
Happy new year people!
Thanks for being there no matter how throughout this whole year.
It's a new year, a new beginning.
It's gonna be busy from today onwards):
I hope LM can bless me and let me survive this year without much major obstacles
Thanks for sending many angels to guide me in my life.
May you let me be a harder working girl in 2011
I will really need that to defeat As
Peace out.
Lanxin the awesome :)
